On assumptions

As much as I try to deflect any emotions related to love, admiration and the likes, there will still come a time that I must admit to myself that I am not that numb. This feeling is always making me uneasy and unwell for a very vague yet spontaneous way.

I find it so hard tonight to express what I really feel because I am limiting myself to divulging anything due to privacy of my roller coaster lifestyle. It's really hard to make any assumptions on what we are or what we feel for.

Just like what I learned in almost five years of my engineering course, assumptions are very crucial, with those you can be able to solve problems easily that are meant to be complicated. Sometimes we can assume that the effect of a system is very negligible that will make the problem solvable and less confusing. Sometimes we can also assume that a system is in steady state that what comes in just comes out, no reactions can occur within the system.

Just like life in general, sometimes we can just assume that the feelings of people are mutual to avoid misunderstandings. We can also assume that things happen for a reason, making us accept our actions easily without further questions.

This assumptions are very dangerous because we never really know if it is right. We just make it, we are the one responsible for these dictations. What if the other party, say the system doesn't behave that way? What if the other person is not feeling the same way?

That is the problem now. It is not wrong to assume because sometimes our instincts are really correct but it is not always that way. As I think about things that's happening to me now, I want to believe that it is still safe to be sure rather than just assume.

Anyway, my mind is a blur right now, one may find this entry quite boring and very random. My apology.