After waiting for 15 years, last night was a dream come true for me. I never expected that I could meet the backstreet boys in person. I had the chance to watch and hear them sing live.
I spent 3,810 php just to have a descent seat and to satisfy myself. I have no regrets. I was such a fan girl, upon reviewing my videos for the night, I was kinda ashamed because I sang with them and and my voice is really that bad. Maybe because of my energy level. Anyway, I cannot do anything, it was caught on camera.
On the other hand, after the concert, I told myself, "What now?". The most precious day that I had been waiting and preparing for is finally over in just a blink of an eye.
This is my sickness, a disease I want to be cured. I don't know what is the matter with me, but when my emotions is at its peak, it will drastically fall down near zero level instantaneously.
Frankly speaking, as I write this entry, my heart aches so much because of various reasons. I do not know why should I again feel this way. I have been avoiding this feeling for the longest time, then suddenly someone will just mess things up. Also, I am quite pressured with the happenings at our home. Things are not going on smoothly here, making me want to spend my time outside.
As a resolution, I will be out entirely this week to do my academics obligations, it is also an excuse to escape my problems in life. I feel empty, alone and afraid because of my stupidity. How I wish I could just forget thing easily and not let my emotions overpower my "critical mind".
duh, another emo entry.
"It's not how many years you put into life, but how much life you put into years"
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