I have witnessed the beauty and nightmare of LIFE for almost 22 years. There are so many what ifs at the back of my mind. I was wondering if life for me is meant to be like this, a cycle of ups and downs, a sinusoidal wave of emotions having a maximum and minimum point. Most of the time, memories of hurt, fear, disappointment prevails over the times of joy, happiness and success. Why is that so? Negative flashbacks are so vivid compared to the positive ones.
I have a theory that all my unhappy experiences in life were more dominant (in terms of memory recall) because it is from those memories I get inspirations to become a better me. The lessons I learned from those helped mold me to become a stronger and a more mature person.
I am becoming more sentimental these days for no specific reason at all. I have been reflecting more often nowadays compared before. Life for me is not that complex. I am still torn between the idea of destiny and free will. There are times that I feel that it is us that makes life complicated, the choices we make in our everyday lives yields to what we are and who we are. On the other hand, there are also times that I feel that there are some other great forces involved that we cannot control affecting the cycle and routine of life.
BUT, there is one thing I am sure of, and I am proud to say that I know God never made my life unfair. Challenges were brought for me to find solutions. Obstacles were presented for me to strengthen my faith. Blessings were given for me not forget to be grateful. Success were encountered for me to have humility.
Life is beautiful and it just keeps on getting better
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