The Year That Was...

"Never let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game." -Babe Ruth

My faith had been tested for so many times this year that I almost lost count. Everything that I had been through may those be good or bad made me become who I am and who I will be.

2013 made me value my job more.

I truly understand now why I took Chemical engineering in college and why I chose to practice my profession in the field of waste water.

Being a chemical engineer does not only entails that I know the technical knowledge, it is important that I also apply what I gathered from experience.

Although I had been mentally exhausted for being a process engineer, boy I must say it is most of the time physically exhausting.

Aside from the usual task of a process engineer, I am proud that I learned how to do sludge hauling from a lagoon, that experience is totally priceless!

I decided to change career mid-May and tried to be a technical sales representative for a Chemical Company, I enjoyed and learned a lot from that short experience, but I guess my heart still belongs to Waste water operations. My TSR experience taught me humility and persistence.

I guess love will always lead me back to wastewater. Now that I am with my new company, I look forward to face new opportunities to help me become a better individual.

2013 taught me the importance of saving

When I was still having assignments abroad for plant start-up, it was a bittersweet experience because I have to leave my family but my salary is tripled during those days. Due to this, I was able to earn something but I was not good at managing my savings. To make a long story short, my earnings were gone.

When I was job-searching during the last month of the third quarter, I was almost broke. That is the time that I felt how hard it is to cannot afford to buy something that I badly want. After experiencing such, I now make sure to appreciate the financial aspect of my life and be wiser on budgeting my money.

2013 made me my brain wiser and my heart stronger

This was the year that I first tried blind dating. It was alright but now I am sure it is not my thing. Out of the blue, I decided to trust someone whom I knew way back in high school. I believed in love again after 6 years of being contented on being single. It was not a happy ending for me due to unexplained situations but this helped me in discovering myself more.

• I got the chance to spend more time with friends especially with my long time friend, Tin. 
• I realized that at the end of the day, nothing beats the love of my family.
• I was able to try Zumba and oh boy I enjoyed dancing and sweating! :)
• It was my first time to dye my hair, yes, I thought my hair's going to fall off!
• It was the time that I have to figure out what I really want with my career and how I will see myself in the future.
• I got to travel out of the country for leisure just to reflect on life.

For everything that had happened in 2013, I am glad that God is always there to show me the light in the darkness, to help me see the beauty in every ugly situation and to assist me in finding the good in goodbye. My family and closest friends never stopped to assure me that life is awesome. From the bottom of my heart, I thank you all for always being there. I am grateful that you are there in the happiest and toughest moments of my life.

I don't wanna plan anything for 2014 yet but I will hope for the best for everyone that I love. May we always find the goodness in all situations and not lose faith that everything will be alright in the end. 

Happy New Year everyone, let's celebrate 2014 with awesomeness and positive vibes! :)

Singapore 2013

This was indeed an impulsive trip. I got to be luckily invited by my friend, Tin over dinner around mid June. It was just a casual conversation of her mentioning that her company might send her to SG for a business trip and it might be a good idea to drop by one weekend to enjoy SG. It was really a great plan because I was planning to have an out of the country trip this year, so fortunately we made that happen. A week before July 5, I booked my plane ticket.

I left Manila at around 22:15 of July 5. I Arrived at Changi Airport around a quarter before 2 of the 6th of July. Tin's staying at Park Avenue Changi Hotel, just around 5km from the airport. The taxi driver was really nice for stopping the meter because we had been going around Changi Business Park and cannot find the hotel right away. Eventually we found our way. I met with Tin but she gave me the saddest news that she won't have her weekend off because she still has to work. Truly heartbreaking, because I planned doing the activities with her. (Tin and I had been good friends since the 3rd grade). Since I was already there, the show must still go on. She ensured me that a friend of hers would accompany me for my Universal Studio Experience.

Our cozy room at Park avenue Changi

I woke up at 5:30 AM to prepare to start off my day at the Botanical Garden. The place was full with kids and joggers. It's a very ideal place to reflect and read a good book.

From there I had met with Tin's friend (eventually became my friend too). We lost our way out of the garden so we have to travel around the perimeters to eventually access the MRT. We had brunch at Vivo City first before heading to Sentosa.

I cannot hide my excitement any longer because I had been dreaming to go to USS ever since. We rode the monorail for an overview of Sentosa.

Upon seeing the iconic symbol of USS which is the globe, we spent quite a while to have pictures taken with it. Eventually we were able to enter USS. I was able to feel the vibes that I was really in Hollywood. The following pictures might narrate how I felt during the visit. For the attractions that we tried, I might say that the Revenge of the Mummy and Transformers 3D were the highlights of this experience. I chickened out for trying the Battlestar Galactica because I had never been a fan of roller coasters. We waited for the Parade in the afternoon before heading to the S.E.A. aquarium, the largest aquarium in the world.

After the parade, we visited the SEA aquarium. We were time bounded because we wanted to catch the firework display back again at USS. We passed by the Maritime Museum first, where displays of SEA countries' richness could be seen.

The SEA Aquarium experience was just alright because I kept comparing it to the one I visited in HK ocean park and of course our very own Manila ocean park. My favorite part? I was able to see up close those cute dolphins! 

After witnessing the firework display at USS, we killed time to have coffee before meeting with Tin at Chinatown for late dinner and some night shopping. We planned to go to Clark quay but we were all drained out of energy.

Our view while having coffee and killing time

The following day, I had breakfast with Tin at Changi Mall. It was a delicious meal, and we were able to have small talks before she head out to work again.

Our yummy breakfast

I had reached out to a long time friend, Ellaine who I also met in the third grade and until now considered to be one of my good friends. She treated me to lunch together with her hubby and my soon to be god-daughter. 

After our lunch at Marina bay sands, we headed to the Gardens by the bay, but we weren't able to enter the observatories anymore because of time constraint.

I Find the Marina Bay Sands truly spectacular. I hope when I return to SG I could see its beauty at night.

                   

Since I was also saving my energy for tomorrow's work (flight back to Manila is just hours away from this moment), I decided just to zoom in my camera to take pictures of some famous figures: The Merlion and the Singapore Flyer.

Ellaine and I finally headed to Orchard Road to do a last minute shopping before I head back to the hotel to prepare for my flight.

Below is just some of the yummy foods that I was able to try. Singapore's cuisine is already an Asian fusion of Chinese, Malaysian, Indonesian and Indian.

This amazing trip wouldn't that be awesome if not for these two great friends. Thank you so much tin and ellaine for this superb experience. Also thank you Paolo (he's too shy to have his picture taken) for the unforgettable USS moment. 

I will surely be back Singapore, I was not able to explore you that much yet, but I promise on my next visit, I will include Malaysia on my itinerary.

Dreams are for everyone

Dreams knows no boundaries nor it's selective. Everyone can dream. It's either you reach for it or you just let it pass by. Never allow anyone to tell you that it's wrong to dream. It's not and will never be. Some may help you achieve it while others will do all they can to stop you from attaining it. 

I learned that to be able to achieve something you gotta know how bad you want it and how much you are willing to give to be able to get it. Some dreams are time limited, some may be beyond possible, some might be  very complicated, but the point is, it is you that can make your dreams happen. Of course from time to time, you need a little push from your family and friends, but in the end it's you who will decide if you still want to pursue it or not. Dreams might change in time, but new dreams still develop and the process is still the same, decide what you wanna do with it.

Obstacles might be encountered along the road to achieving your dreams, one may simply give up and might not be brave enough to see the end of the road, while others will persevere and find solutions to pass the barriers. Traversing a difficult road towards reaching your dreams is a sweeter and fulfilling victory. 

All I wanna say to anyone who will come across this blog is that many times in our lives we will rethink about our future plans, how we want to change goals, and how are we going to foresee ourselves in the future, but what is important is we don't give up on our dreams and do something about it. We might feel down, hopeless, and at the lowest point in our life, but there is always a slope to climb. The world was not created flat, nor the signals are always constant. We could reach the peak and achieve what we wished to. We just need a driving force, a strong mind set that we could do it. 

(image source: www.JulieJarnagin.com)

Redirecting Life

Friends who know me said I was always too good, I tend to settle with what was available, too shy to speak up what I need, most of the time compromise so that others will be at ease.

Just like what I learned and practice in my profession, everything has limits. If the value goes beyond the limit, disaster might happen: equipment will be broken, water will be polluted, motors will trip, instruments will malfunction and many more. 

I might have reached that point. One day I woke up and questioned myself what am I really doing with my life? I am 25, stuck in a job I thought I will love forever, doing the same thing for the past years without even thinking what would really make me happy.

I am in the process of rediscovering myself, what I really want to be 5-10 years from now, what are my likes, my interests, my hobbies. Let's just say I am living each day now trying to figure out slowly who I am as a daughter, friend, employee or even acquaintance. Maybe, just maybe, it is when I know exactly what I really want that I will become genuinely happy. 

So I am taking baby steps, exploring other career options that will definitely suit my personality and lifestyle. I am searching for the one that I could look forward to be doing in the long run, one that will let me commit and give my all. I want to relearn who I am. I always had been passionate with volleyball, but that was gone a long time ago, I want to rekindle the fire I have towards sports. I want to try dancing again. I want to get involved again in community service, to volunteer in a non-profit organizations. I want to have time and budget to travel and explore the world and discover the cultures of other countries.

I want to prove to myself that I can make it through with whatever life has to offer. People come and go, some might even pissed you off infinitely, but what is important is that I could still be standing despite how many rotten tomatoes they throw to me. I want to find the strength to learn when to say No to somebody, I want to be courageous enough to decide and be firm with what I really want.

Changing something overnight cannot happen, but starting to redirect my life's path will be a great start to finding true happiness. I hope one day, I could attain that. 

    

  

Bangkok December 2012

I had a separate entry about Thailand on my previous posts but I chose to also have a specific article about my Bangkok escapade last December 2012. It's indeed work related so finding time to tour was really unexpected. It's just timely that it was King Bhuminol Adulyadej's 85th birthday and Thais really honor their King so we had a time off from work and we headed to Bangkok.

It was a 3.5 hours travel from Nakhon Ratchasima (Korat) to Bangkok. We first headed to MBK to have lunch and buy some souvenirs. We were too afraid that we won't have this opportunity when we return to Manila so we already decide to shop til we drop. :)

We ate at a fast food that serves international cuisine. For my case, I went Greek.

After that we decided to head to the Grand Palace to take a chance if we could see the King. We travelled via BTS then sailed thorugh Chao Phraya River.

Unfortunately, too many people are also patiently waiting outside the Grand Palace to see His Royal Highness, so we just decided to take some pictures then head to Wat Pho.

Wat Po is the home of the Reclining Buddha. We stayed there for quite a while and braved the heat of Bangkok.

After that, we headed to Wat Arun, the temple of the dawn. It is just accross Wat Po.

After a very long day, we decided to have dinner at Siam Paragon before heading back to Korat. It was a fun fulfilling day. Tiring yet it's all worth it.

Entrance for tourist
Grand Palace - 400 THB
Wat Pho - 150 THB
Wat Arun - 50 THB
**Proper attire must be worn upon entering those establishments.

Vietnam 2012

I was Vietnam bound last October 16-19 2012 because of work but I won't talk about work here. I will just tell you how Amazing Vietnam was to me during my 4 day visit.

I stayed in Central Vietnam so I took the the domestic flight from Ho Chi Minh City to Da Nang. Then travelled by land to Quang Ngai City. Chu Lai Arport is nearer to Quang Ngai but they only have one flight everyday and that did not fit my tight schedule.

Upon landing in Ho Chi Minh City, I am already amazed by the numbers of motorcycles in the streets.

It's also nice to see that Vietnamese women still wear their traditional dress (Ao Dai) when going to work. Below is an example of it. Also included in the image in Tan Sun Nhat Airport in Ho Chi Minh City and some of establishments in Saigon.

What I enjoyed most during my stay was the food being served to me. Thankful for the generous client of course! This is one of the perks that I love when I work. I observed that Vietnamese love pepper! Well, it's tolerable for me but there was a time that I cannot stop coughing already. Also, there are too many types of noodles (I remember they mentioned it at 7). What captured my heart is their abundance in sea foods. I am a sea food lover ever since so seeing overflowing scallops, shrimps, fish, etc made my heart jump into excitement! 

It was also my first time to eat some exotic foods (2 in this case), the experience was good, at least I had tried to go beyond my comfort zone and it wasn't bad after all.

I stayed in My Tra Riverside Hotel in Quang Ngai City, I must say hotel rates are really cheap in Vietnam but the facility and service is excellent.

For Souvenirs, I only bought some things from the small mall in Quang Ngai then upon arriving at the airport, it is always a requirement for me to buy a Chocolate made from the country I am visiting. Also, I had been told that their coffee (G7) is really flavorful, so it's one of the many things I bought before heading back home.

Hopefully, I could get the chance to visit Vietnam again. I heard that they sell lots of North Face items in Bin Tan District for a much cheaper price. Also, I find the weather just right, not too hot but not too cold. Da Nang had been known to be the Boracay of Vietnam but I wasn't able to try the beaches there yet, so hopefully on my return, I could do that or better yet I could also visit and enjoy Hanoi to further learn the culture of Vietnam. 

On channeling strength after a break up

Many times had my fragile heart been broken but it still amazes me how I was able to see the rainbow after the rain (or storm?). Indeed, undergoing that stage is one of the things I wished to deflect for the rest of my life but it is a process we cannot avoid if the feeling isn't meant to be.

They said first love never dies, true for my case. My first love was a young love, up until now we remained good friends. The romantic love that we felt turned into an unbreakable friendship. I can say that I consider him still one of my best guy friends until now. The second and third  time I fell hard for someone did not turn out to be that good. We are just casual to each other, but good thing is we don't hate each other.

Now I am dealing with the latest. After 6 years I had given my heart the chance to believe in love again and to trust someone to take good care of it. It was all in a blur as I recall. It might had happened too fast but never did I regret that I shared a few moments of happiness with him. I underwent a lot of doubts, questions for the past days because I had been caught off guard. I knew there was something wrong but never did I imagine it would end all at once. I just wished it had ended on a more formal one where we could talk face to face, after all we had been friends since a long time ago before we entered the relationship, so I think I deserve better.

I had been in shock then denied that it was happening. I underwent Isolation for a while. The worst part is me being angry and mad at him. I might have saw all the negative things in our relationship already, and made me think there's no need to bargain anymore. So yeah, depression followed. I was down, thought of the moments we were together and what went wrong. Maybe the one month relationship is also proportional to the phase of the break-up stages I am experiencing, too fast..

BUT it is also possible that I just cannot keep grudges, I had forgiven myself. Regretting will never help. I had to accept that things happen for a reason. This all happened for me to learn something. Maybe I should had guarded my heart more, or this is just to show me again that it is alright to love and be hurt again.

I always find comfort in my family, relatives and close friends. They were the ones who kept enlightening me that life doesn't stop because I was hurt. Ultimately, I surrender my faith to God, I know he understands me most and will not give me any obstacles I cannot surpass. I have to be brave. I have to forgive. I have to let go.

Truly it is only ourselves who can only say if we are ready again. No one can dictate or pressure you when you are ready to forgive and move on.